Have you ever heard of Body Dysmorphic Disorder? I think I have it. Well, not really, since it's considered an "obsession" with one's imagined flaws. I don't obsess over it, but I do think I view myself differently from how others do. For example:
I feel like this huge, clumsy, blob-thing. But then someone will say something about my appearance and to totally throws me off. Like the other day, one of my friends told me she always loves my natural makeup. I really try to go for the natural look, so that was a huge compliment for me. I constantly worry that I've got globs of makeup all over my face, like I'm doing it wrong.
Oh, the other day someone even said they like my ombre hair. I died. I don't purposely have ombre hair. I'm just attempting to grow out my highlights since I don't have the time or money to keep up with it. I guess I'll take what I can get.
Same thing goes for my size. I feel huge. Granted, not as huge as I used to be (see here). But lately I've gotten some compliments from people at work. It makes me feel GREAT, but every time someone says something nice I'm like, really? You see THAT? Huh.
It's so strange, like my eyes don't work or something.