Monday, September 24, 2012

Somniphobia

I am afraid of going to sleep.  Every night, I avoid going to bed, because I know it's going to suck.  I toss and turn all night long.  Then I am guaranteed to wake up between 3:30 and 4:30 when Mila has her congestion cough.  She usually can't breathe through her nose, so she wakes up angry.  I have to use saline spray and a booger bulb to clean her out, but by that point, she's wide awake and takes some coaxing back to sleep.

Even when Travis gets up with her, her crying keeps me awake.  WIDE awake.  When my alarm goes off I feel like I'm in a partial coma.  But in the middle of the night when Mila wakes me, WIDE AWAKE.  Ugh.

So, now I dread going to sleep because I am guaranteed a crappy night of sleep.  Mila has her 4-month check up this week.  I'm hoping the doctor will offer some fabulous, fix-it-all advice.  Preferrably in the form of a prescription.  Mila has also had these random bouts of inconsolable crying for the past week.  I wonder if she has an ear infection, or something more serious.  She doesn't have a fever though.

I've thought about taking Tylenol PM, but then I worry about Travis waking up with the kids if they need him.  He can sleep through a hurricane.  I used to be able to sleep through hurricanes.  That was BC.  Before Children. 

4 comments:

Jodie said...

CVS sells a chewable melatonin. It's 5mg, I think. I use it frequently. It doesn't leave you drowsy like Tylenol PM. It's in a purple bottle by the vitamins. My sister and I both have insomnia and we really like this.

Nikki said...

THANK YOU JODIE!! I am going to try it.

Sara's Satire said...

I have heard good things about melatonin. I tried it for about 3 weeks, unfortunately it doesn't work for me. I have really bad insomnia and would have loved to be able to take something better than tylenol pm. Unfortunately, I rely heavily on the tylenol, otherwise I would probably only get a few hours of sleep a night. Sometimes, the tylenol PM doesn't even work. I will take my 2 (which is my usual dosage) then an hour and a half later I will still be wide awake so I will go take another one. I have tried counting sheep but it gets old once I get to 500 and I usually just give up on it, I have tried "the movie reel" where you make up a movie in your head and its basically like watching it in your mind...sometimes it works, but sometimes it doesn't because the "movie" gets really good! LOL Then there is "the name game" which is something Vanessa and I used to do to pass the time, it's where you think of every A name you can think of before moving to all the B names, then C etc. Like I said, Tylenol PM is really the only thing that gets me to sleep at night, and sometimes I have to combine it with one of these other "games"...well except if I drink alcohol...that puts me to sleep too! LOL
I hope you get some sleep soon, just remember, you will sleep eventually! LOL Mila will start sleeping through the night and a few months from now, a year from now, you wont even remember how tired you were. You will remember being tired, you will remember it being hard...but you wont remember how tired or how hard. I remember being exhausted after having Landry...but I can't really fathom it anymore. I know I was tired, but I can't actually remember the feeling (this probably doesn't make any sense!).

Nikki said...

I don't USUALLY have too much trouble falling asleep once I lay down and commit to it (wearing a face mask helps me). I started wiggling my toes when I get settled in. I know it sounds dumb, and it may just be placebo effect, but it works for me and that's all i care about! I can't imagine having real insomnia. EESH.

http://reflexologylive.blogspot.com/2009/02/wiggling-your-toes-to-sleep.html